The past two months of silence has been due to many factors. The
death of my grandfather shortly before Christmas required me to fly home for
four days. I have been on board for just about three months… I’ve only
been off the ship about seven times during this period. We’ve been to South
America, the Carribean, French Polynesia, New Zealand and now currently Australia. These
are all parts of the world I’ve always wanted to visit and most of it was seen
from the ship. I don’t want to say I’ve fallen into a depression, but take into
consideration the work load and you can imagine the frustration that builds
with each day more disappointing than the next.
I’ll admit to drinking more here than I ever would on land
and that doesn’t help. There haven’t been any posts because
I’ve been feeling tired, cynical, and a bit bitter about my situation. How can
I write about my travels or about food if I can’t even explore the destinations
that the ship is sailing to? I know now that doubt is such a powerful thing. It
can bring ones confidence, self-esteem, and self assuredness toppling down. It
can turn you into a wreck if you let it
As much as I want to (and do) bitch and complain I forget to
remember the important things. One of my good friends here on the ship had to
bring me back down to earth. “You
choose the life that you want.”